paper thin walls.

ahh what a week. the sun has been cleansing my existense these past couple days, it is dreamlike. I have been feeling very inspired to get my foot into some musical project. i raised my brow when i saw these guys. remarkable really, the kid in the video sitting on the ground is my brother from another mother, when he first moved in and around these parts i really couldnt stand listening to any noise he made anymore. my intolerance was unecessary. Pons, or i think as of recently losing a battle to a band with the same name, the call themselves 'Pussy Ornate Natural State'

                                               

(my first video edit.)

this show was really alot of fun, i am really intrigued by the indie-esque 'sub-culture' being built up in basements of houses all over broadripple, indiana. I have seen some really good talent, honestly the best talent I have seen in the indianapolis area has come into my ears while standing in the basement of a 3 dollar house show. There is a social evolution happening in music, apperent here in indianapolis, and even more apparent with my time spent in Williamsburg, Brooklyn. I love that my brother Jacob has taken part. ;-]

CLICK HERE FOR SOME PONS MAN!

also before moving on, i just want to state, that i caught pons biggest fan in that video. " I LOVE PONS, I LOVE YOU ANDY."  big giggles.

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i also went and caught my favorite live performance this past weekend in South Bend. It was good to get to my baptism and soak it all up. I wait completely impatiently for the next time i am graced by an Umphreys Mcgee jam session. Its like melting butter for your ears, its like tickling your eyes with every color in the crayon box, and it builds you up to explode your heart. i love the teasing that happens when i go see these guys play their music.

                                                                       

things are looking interesting for the summer. i am constantly building up steam to spout off into the world.  I must confess I wonder how far I can push myself creatively to produce something i can feel was worthwhile, in this society. personal satisfaction, to me, is the easy part. thus keeping me from the life of a lemming. 

windows wide open, early summer breeze.

i feel something, and its making it hard to breath

the wind in my toes is apparent, barefoot in the 

grass as it blows. turned around looking in the moment last, i forgot i forget that this goes by fast. 

" silver and gold, silver and gold

everyone wishes for silver and gold

how do you measure its worth?

just by the pleasure it gives her on earth. "

fourtwentyforaleming)

Happy Holidaze for MEEEE. 

sorry to the neighbos for the smell. =] =] favorite day of the yearrrrr. 

also. roomate is now free to make ideas reality. Four Twenty For a Leming. =] finding his way out of line. 

the gotan project. ceu. radiohead. modest mouse. massive attack. micranots. mos def. all about brooklyn today. and everyday. love ;]

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creation of themself.

nothing good is coming from the ripe fruit.

I woke up from a dream last night, alone and concerned, you see, i never escaped from being that young feeble baby. i grew up  a bit, and walked away from the shell, but the childs still there as far as I can tell. 

as i opened my eyes i realized what i had just dreamt. a memory on replay. my life on replay. it all felt like one small moment in time the could be just one memory, until i realized it was my entire life up until age 7. i opened my eyes when i felt the eyes of something else reading the reaction in my mind. i wish i wouldnt have noticed. 

"The trick is to combine your waking rational abilities with the infinite possibilities of your dreams. Because, if you can do that, you can do anything." 

The thing that stirred me up the most is that i thought

I had been lucid dreaming. I actually felt that I was the

one creating the dream. Alot of what I was experiencing

was very dream-like and almost unbelieveable. Is this

not the reality of life? or a reality?

Gratitude and Frustration.

Everyday I wake up a accepting life on its own terms a little more.   I control my own reality and nooone  else's, this leads me to walking my feet out of alot of predicaments, with the realization that most of the time the situation is not solely controlled by myself. Im a runner. I havent stuck with alot of hard times, and its something i regret deeply. 

One of my best friends Danielle is moving to Austin, Tx this weekend, and shes not walking away with a great amount of good vibes towards me. Its a moment of epiphany to me. 

Ive been really feeling amped on life in all aspects, besides this. 

I AM letting go of alot of people in my life that i dont feel consider my emotions, or really take the time to understand and nurture my own ideas, worrys, and needs. (thus far it would be everyone) but you cant expect to much out of people, once again, your the only one in control. The ball of frustration inside of my chest, with every conversation, grows and grows. I want to look at the majority of folks i have interacted with this far into my life, and i want to scream, I DONT GIVE A FLYING FUCK. and i want the people i care about to know, that that is what they get, I'm sorry if my concern for everyone isn't enough, but these people know my life has ties in every direction. I don't know a single person who connects and reaches out to more people in a day than i do.  I don't always have time to chat for hours, or visit on a day to day basis. My job is seeing you people, but theres alot of you to see. I love everyone in my world right now with the most deep and indescribable compassion, but I am ultimately concerned about my own state of mind, and my current status in life. I often feel that people underestimate what i am feeling or observing or dealing with myself, and that is okay, but I will continue to stay true to my own heart, because once I'm done walking the same path to the same end as the rest of us, i will be there alone and with my own spirit, and in the end, that's the only truth i will know. 

I love all of you in whom i reach out to on a constant basis. I'm sorry if my presence is often absent, and i will try harder to let my feelings and needs be known. Its all growing, and i may be lacking in my communication area, but everyone lacks something, and everyone deserves an explanitation. 

to a true friendship with lots of confusion. i love you and hold you in my dreams and wishes.

 

love some danielley smelly. 

                                   


                                    

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First of all;  Bike Sprints down 10th St. in Indianapolis are growing to be a habit, followed by some rooftop action in my favorite spot. 

on a side note.

ive been keeping a watchful eye on the graffiti around town. im not much for bombing buildings and hopeless billboards these days, but i sure am sick of the cats doing work around indy. today,  i climbed atop and old piece done by a regular cat. I have been lookin out for this kid for months. He needs new style, and he needs to get a concept of real lettering. if i could find him to tell him this, i would in a heartbeat. this goes out to you. cho-cough cough nevermind. 

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I am really liking where things are heading. Im looking forward to alot, and i havent been able to state that in a while. i have wisps of inspirations exploding from all of the influences in my world.  I understand time signatures as of today. I'd never taken the time to ask the simple question. I feel ridiculous for this. 

 passively awaiting the weekend.

Umprheys Mcgee. 

South Bend, Indiana

Morris Theater

Saturday April 19, 2009

^^^^^^^^

  my church. 

love and light.

more for you pour soon

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ps. if you dont love the free stuff that chic mother earth is given you, your nuts. 

thank you dani and kayla for having good enough blogs to inspire myself  to put my little space on the interweb together. =]

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coming to conclusions.

"Space ships can't tame the jungle
And I feel like I'm giving in
We've been drivin thru a desert
Looking for a life to call our own."   -beck    

I woke up this morning.       You would think that was enough to fill my day. 

This is MY blog. Hello, Im Hannah. Im your tourguide to the universe. Ive decided that living a life in which I am the observer, and not the observee, is the kind of life i find the most comfort in. I also feel like a few good tips from a few good people are the most helpful tools the world has to offer.

Lately I have been paying an unusual amount of attention the simple idea that we are all walking the same path to the same end. Walking, in a line, to the same ending. hypothetically. This, here, what you are experiencing, this is the big gray area for me. The filling of our time is the most uncertain subject i can journey to in my head. 

Nevertheless, all of this really doesn't matter to me anymore. Im finding more and more everyday that the action of doing is what my life will hold, continually until my walk has ended and my energy is released back into the pool of unknowingness. In the meantime, Im broke, my creative capacity is overwhelming, and i love, love, love finding beauty in people and their ideas. I will keep you updated on things going on around the world and around my neighborhood, that will keep the soul pleasantly occupied. Namaste. =]

 

photo credit: Danielle Shaun Way