creative process

" the creative process is a process of surrender, not control" - Julia Cameron

shes says it best i suppose, the past couple days i have been searching my inner weirdness to come up with a visual concept of what i would like to portray in my next art piece... It is not coming to me as easy as usual. I am feeling like i need to be inspired, which is also a frustration factor, because i feel like working off of inspirations ONLY, is not a good thing. I am sure it will come to me within a matter of time, until then i can work on maing things that are less meaningful to me, and more just for the sake of producing.

saturday nights

arent so awsome in indianapolis, i live in an incest pool.

growth in understanding dressed up as a woman.

i am understanding that only i can be the one who understands what i am saying, there are to many layers, to many contexts.

2010

PART 1
I don't understand why the astronomers responsible for naming new-found objects are so devoid of flair. Here's a prime example: They found a blazar, or blazing quasi-stellar object, in a faraway galaxy. It's powered by a supermassive black hole that's 10 billion times larger than our sun. Why did they give this fantastic oddity the crushingly boring name "Q0906+6930"? Couldn't they have called it something like "Queen Anastasia" or "Blessed Quasimodo" or "Gastromopolopolis"? I trust you won't be as lazy in your approach to all the exotic discoveries you're going to be making in 2010, Aries. Start getting your imagination in top shape. Make sure it's primed and ready for your upcoming walkabout to the far reaches of reality.

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PART 2
What influences do you really, really need to say goodbye to? The next six months will provide you with ample motivation and opportunity to finally bid those farewells. What long-term cycle really, really needs to be drawn to a close, no more hemming and hawing, all loose ends tied up and all mixed signals clarified? Again, the time between now and the middle of June will bring you the necessary inspiration to make it happen. But it'll take deep thought and sustained work and an expanded sense of humor, so get started soon.

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PART 3
One of my favorite landscape painters makes a livable wage from selling her art. She has had many gallery showings and has garnered much critical acclaim. That's the good news. The bad news is that she feels obligated to keep churning out more landscape paintings -- even when her muse nudges her to take a detour into, say, abstract expressionism or surrealistic portraits. Galleries don't want anything from her except the stuff that has made her semi-famous. "Sometimes I fantasize about creating a series of 'Sock Puppet Monkeys Playing Poker,'" she told me. If she were an Aries, I'd advise her to do what I think you should do in 2010: Listen to what your version of the sock puppet monkeys are urging you to do.

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PART 4
The Earth's north magnetic pole is not the same as the geographic North Pole. If you take out a compass to orient yourself toward due north, the compass arrow will actually point toward a spot in the frigid wilds of Canada. But what's really odd is that the north magnetic pole has been on the move since 1904 -- scientists don't know exactly why -- and has dramatically sped up in recent years. According to National Geographic, it's now zooming toward Siberia at the rate of almost 40 miles per year. I suspect that your own metaphorical version of magnetic north will also be changing in 2010, Aries. By January 2011, the homing signal you depend on to locate your place in reality may have migrated significantly.

yes. they are that next level shit

stop my playlist to play this.

modern marvels

i walked in on her, i split in two, this is no way to live, it hit me so hard, so hard.

hold back, self control, tortured is that of my soul. and the patterns in noise, are all but what i avoid.

it takes me there and i started to cry, for the last time until im in love again.

bike porn

i like it. makes me feel like riding. and getting nakied